Loving Doubt

As a soul in love ? i live in two worlds My mind and soul are at war like the two gods Who seek to destroy each other without thinking of the odds Just to become the Lord of the Lords I know and believe i am in love But why do i feel there is no love In one day all feels amazing and consecrated But in another everything feels degrading and unprotected Is this a feeling of a loving doubt Or i do not know what I am talking about And i am allowing my doubt To tell me what I am about Why do i allow the fear of no love To destroy my true love Which can be compared to no love Even if it is as beautiful as a dove But since i have no might To get into the heart And pull what is under the mat I am still vulnerable to the loving doubt illness