Love Or Insanity

i know im in love, and i know who with, but he'll never love me back itd be too quick, he's tall, funny, handsom and just great, and i know if i fell for him, id look like fish bait, he sits next to me and makes me laugh, i'm sure im headed on the right path, i'll smile and giggle at his cute jokes, and hope to god he knows im stoked, im crazy to see him every day, i want him to hold me in every wich way, and ill sit at this table in this chair and when he's talking ill politley stare, ill smile so wide so he knows im happy, and ill pray to god people dont day "make this snappy" and all i could live is knowing he's ok, and he doesnt have to talk to me but he does anyways, im one of his friends and a good one in fact, and i know he likes girl. just not me and that's that, but im glad i have him and his voice to listen to, and im glad i have his jokes that are never just a few, i've seen the way hes looks at me, i know ive felt his touch, but just dreaming of kissing him will never be enough, so ill slit my wrist crying over him, and the girl he truly loves she makes my day dim, people dont know what goes on in his head, but i for sure do and its something i dread, he thinks about sports and girls unnlike me. and just thinking of him hurts like being stung by a bee, so tonight ill think of him and be stung all over, and as long as im in love ill never feel sober, getting drunk of the touch when you nudge my shoulder, and dreaming we'll be together when we grow older.