Lost Within
Today I realized there is no such thing as escaping from the pain you have caused
And deep inside I want to run and hide
Because I would rather be lost withing than feel my heart breaking
Sometimes I wonder how many more steps I can take
Without really breathing
Inside the walls are closing
Like they want me to suffocate
There is so much I've sacrificed
just forgiving again and again
Inside I am feeling empty
Pretending like you never hurt me
And it seems like I’ve got no choice
But to let you back into my life
since you’re the sister of my husband
I'm forced to play nice
Cause I know I am stuck with this misery and strife
I know that freedom from this prison is so far away
Like the fading memories of all my yesterdays
I am looking for a motive to release this pain
But my thoughts keep rolling
Making the tears come down like rain
And I am afraid to trust because of the pain you caused me
It’s like I am locked up in my own prison
Cause I still feel my heart breaking
Sometimes I wonder
How many more steps I can go
before I lose all my control
Without really breathing
I have sacrificed so much just forgiving
Pretending like you never hurt me
Forced to accept the things I can’t change
When I know deep inside it could happen again
Tonight I realized there is no such thing as escaping
The pain you have caused
the only relief is gone like the end of this song
Copyright © Jane Kostman | Year Posted 2012
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