Loss of a Husband

When I lost my husband I lost myself completely I Couldn't understand That no longer would he greet me I'm empty in my mind Please someone help me find A little peace and happiness That I have left behind My heart is badly broken And I'm trying to understand why god called for my husband When we had a future planned Why do i have to hurt so much Why suffer all this pain I know now that my husband's gone I'll never be the same I really need some answers I really need to know He can't just disappear No He just can't go Because I really love him And i need him so But yes he has left me He has gone away I've not been the same Ever since that day My heart feels hollow My head feels sad I never imagined I'd feel this bad Please come back I miss you so I'm so confused Why you had to go I've spoken that I'm broken But no-one can hear As I wipe away Yet another tear I wait all alone Each day and each night Waiting for someone To make things alright It's not going to happen It's not meant to be He only exists now In my memory