Loss

When the drugs are gone, I feel like dying
Cos when reality hits, I'm left there crying
Wishing things could go back to how they used to be
Like the way you promised, so sincerley 
But all thats gone to ****
& so has my dreams
& so has my life
Which has been torn at the seams
There's no other man
That holds a candle next to you
& when all I do is compare
I'm reminded of all the things we would do
& all this hits me hard
like a bullet through the chest
like a knife to my throat
A razor to my wrist
But when I take one hit
What a relief so desparatley needed
To clean up the mess you made
Of a heart that wont stop bleeding
Its the escape I need, when I feel so dead
But when I have nothing else, 
I take what I can get 
I miss you, I need you, like the air I breathe
& if I cant have that, Ill take a puff of just about anything
& if I cant smoke it, ill pop it, snort it, inject into a vein
& hey if it kills me, at least I'll be free from this pain
So judge me, hate, me, think whatever you wish
But when you've lost all you got
Then death becomes your only wish
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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artlyy Avatar
September 18, 2026 at 8:02 AM
I've really been enjoying your poem and the emotions and imagery were so vivid that i could easily picture them as beautiful illustration. I'm a commission-based manga/webtoon artist, and I'd love to help bring your story to life if you're ever interested. Feel free to reach out at gm@il : akiracomicart2@ or on inst@ akiraa_artly
Agustin Avatar
May 4, 2024 at 3:51 AM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
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February 12, 2016 at 10:55 PM
ASHLEY, Enjoyed the way you expressed every line. Please keep writing and sharing your poetry. LOVE LINDA
Tsiluma Avatar
October 7, 2012 at 1:05 AM
Whoa! You've brought out the raw emotions very well. Loss is a difficult pill to swallow and so is recovery from loss. Nice write!
Lane Avatar
October 6, 2012 at 9:42 AM
Therapy through words is what get's me by. Thank you for your honesty and your pain. They say scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue but the process is still very tough. Thanks and take care!
Lane Avatar
October 8, 2012 at 7:59 PM
Sorry...gets me by.Lol long day!
Scott Avatar
October 3, 2012 at 8:40 AM
IS've been there at those times as I've probably mentioned in allot of my writes all ill say is you are turning something negative into something positive with your beautiful poems look forward to reading more xx davidscott
Brown Avatar
October 1, 2012 at 12:45 PM
Today is the start of a new month and a new week. I am reading what looks to be some exceptional writing today. So glad I was able to read yours Ashley. Love, Carol
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