Losing Understanding

Bursting into fire, sometimes my only desire or maybe a feeling to get me higher comprehension of existence soothes my soul thinking of my life makes me lose control mixed emotions, blood on the wall take one more step and i begin to fall mixing roses my eulogy is here my heart drops the message is clear am i worthy to live or ready to die? my heart beats faster i begin to cry. suffering on the inside my pain is too great pray for me now before its too late. existence turns to ashes as my life continually crashes reality exists to those who believe i turn my back and start to leave. close my eyes turn off the light losing understanding of wrong and right.