Losing My Self Worth

My self esteem never peaked Mental abuse always leaked From your foul and mean mouth All my dignity just flew south And never came back again Your so proud that you could win The power of my sad heart Broken from the very start I was born -- it never ended Young and naive you pretnended To care for and love me true Dishonest lies came from you As I grew and figured out What your lies were all about It was too late for me to find Self esteem of any kind All my self worth you just ruined My anger is largely brewing As I think back to the days I never recognized the ways My siblings received the love I needed and missed so much Was I such a useless burden You threw me aside and hurtin' Fragile, unsure and so young My chance on life never begun An innocent baby can not grow Without the love a parent shows Why did my sisters and brothers Get the love while I was smothered By neglect and loneliness So much joy my life has missed A little girl trapped in the fate Of so much despair and hate