Lord Have Mercy

I gave up partying to make life better. Now it seems as though everyone sees me and says "Let's get her." I can't seem to get on my feet. For someone seems to come along and knock me out of my seat. So many deaths it's hard to keep up with. So many losses do I really have to do this. Fourteen days away, since my cousin went to heaven to stay. Nine months from now, God took my Dad some reason,some how. My life has never been the same, although I am much more tame. Lord have mercy,give me a break,and please help me, for only you can really see.