Looking Back

It's been 10 years today since you stood here with me. Looking back now I realize I just couldn't see. The pain and the torment you carried inside. There was nowhere left to run and nowhere to hide. Can we please spend sometime...just you and me and try to recapture how things use to be. We'd laugh till we cried...but it wasn't enough. Sometimes looking back is more than just tough. My focus back then was a yard of perfection. It's funny how events can cause a correction. The yard that I then took so much pride in, I now find that I frequently hide in. Can we please spend sometime...just you and me and try to recapture how things use to be. We'd laugh till we cried...but it wasn't enough. Sometimes looking back is more than just tough. The hours went by...he was so calm and patient Tomorrow would be his birthday celebration. He gave me a hug...just out of the blue. I was caught so off guard I didn't know what to do. Can we please spend sometime...just you and me and try to recapture how things use to be. We'd laugh till we cried...but it wasn't enough. Sometimes looking back is more than just tough. We had his 27th birthday at our house that year. When it was over, he asked me quite clear. Would you want to come over to spend time with me... we could watch movies, eat, or just shoot the breeze. I said not today, they'll be plenty more chances. I felt sorta bad as I saw his sad glances. Can we please spend sometime...just you and me and try to recapture how things use to be. We'd laugh till we cried...but it wasn't enough. Sometimes looking back is more than just tough. The next day the world stopped as our son passed away. What went through his mind is so hard to say. His voice it rings out everyday of the year...give your love first and you may never hear... Can we please spend sometime...just you and me and try to recapture how things use to be. We'd laugh till we cried...but it wasn't enough. Sometimes looking back is more than just tough. P.R.Deremer