Longing For the Past Days

My thoughts are a mess, And I can't explain why. A glimpse of the past for a moment. And everything goes dark again. I don't have enough time for myself, And there is no way to fix it. I live in the past with a little bit of grief, Sometimes I can't just leave it. When I'm all alone, I'm lost in my memories. And in tortures I will reach the bottom… I know you'll say I'm weird. I know, because I don't recognize myself, But maybe I'm just different. It's like I left the pack once, And so I live alone at the edge. I miss my past, I miss those who are no longer there. I'd like to know who to pay the fee to, To get a ticket in happiness. My losses are irreparable, And there is more than one hole in the heart. I have to live with them, And forget everything that happened yesterday.