Living Suicide

Life it is meant be more than an existince I know our life is never meant to be perfect Visiting a darkness where i know i can hide I know there are options which I can take Never giving into the nightmare which I live God i hate living the way that i do it my fault Sometimes I lay awake thinking of options Until I suddenly wake up in middle of night I wake up and face the world in which i live Choosing to live the way in which i chosen Ignoring the option in which can truly help Deep down I truly hate myself for who I am Existence it the life in which we live our life