Life Prolonged
I was supposed to die today
Week after week I'd withered away
I could no longer face the desperate hours
Always reminded that I have no power
I have no love and I have no hope
No more have I the ability to cope
I wanted to die and that was it
So I poured a bleach cocktail and began to sip
I added some pills just for good measure
So tired of nothing bringing me pleasure
I downed it all with a few big swallows
Then I got comfortable, knowing death should follow
I leaned back and waited for the darkness to come
And come it did, I was now gone
Or so I thought until I awoke
On a breathing machine feeling I might choke
My mother was there with pure joy in her eyes
She wanted to know why suicide I tried
She questioned what prompted this unforgivable sin
But I felt only disappointment for failing again
I wanted to die not wake up here
My only answer was a lake of tears
for contest: Surviving After Suicide Attempts
Copyright © April Gabriella | Year Posted 2013
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