Life Prolonged

I was supposed to die today Week after week I'd withered away I could no longer face the desperate hours Always reminded that I have no power I have no love and I have no hope No more have I the ability to cope I wanted to die and that was it So I poured a bleach cocktail and began to sip I added some pills just for good measure So tired of nothing bringing me pleasure I downed it all with a few big swallows Then I got comfortable, knowing death should follow I leaned back and waited for the darkness to come And come it did, I was now gone Or so I thought until I awoke On a breathing machine feeling I might choke My mother was there with pure joy in her eyes She wanted to know why suicide I tried She questioned what prompted this unforgivable sin But I felt only disappointment for failing again I wanted to die not wake up here My only answer was a lake of tears for contest: Surviving After Suicide Attempts