Life Is Confusing

Life is confusing, why so sad. Even when I'm happy it's just for a tad. I can't see where I want to be. But I know its some place free. From all this hurt that comes my way. I need a change, I need to be strong...I can't stay. I tell people I'm getting better, it's just an act. I'm feeling more depressed than ever in fact. I wish I didn't have feelings or didn't care. But I can't get my thoughts out to share. My life went from stability to not knowing. Now it's obvious, don't like it showing.