Life Is a Pain

I've been away for sometime. Trying to figure out this life and where I will be. So many obstacles coming towards me, I see loved ones dying cause of mistakes they made. Drugs not being my lifestyle, but having a man be my addiction. Trying to get rid of this pain, Not knowing how to overcome each day. I still find myself standing strong, with my head held high. My little sisters, not understanding why sissy can't be around. I'm so far away. Seeing a little girl cry, makes my heart shatter, makes it break. All this pain that I have to bear, and only being 15. Watching mommy be doped up, so much she can barely see. Trying to take away a man, the only thing keeping me sane. I'm going crazy in this life, still wondering where I will be. What should I do, please tell me..