Life

I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I loved what I had. But know that I'm thinking back, I wish the past could recollect and present itself to me one last time. I loved what I had, And I knew what I wanted. You spoke to me, and I forgot what it was. You calling me names, broke my new wall. Just one spoken name, And it was only in a text. I think I realize that you don't know what you do to me.. I feel like I'm not wanted, and you just want me to feel special. The worst part, The dark cloud that fills my mind. Is that I care what you think about me, I care that you don't care And that's what kills me the most. But honestly this is just life, And I don't know how to handle it.