Left Or Right

I literally feel like I'm two different people. Trying to balance both sides that are not equal. The chemistry switching one side to the other. Completely the opposite and they hate one another.. Heads is calm and collected, keeping things in line, Tails is uncontrollable, manipulating things inside. So powerful they both are, I wish they'd just "make a toast" It literally splits me in two, I feel like I'm just a host. 'Hostage" is more like it, Seeing how I cannot escape, I'm so exhausted, can you understand the type of energy this takes? There's an angel and a demon, a darkside and a light, Constant struggles of split headed mentality, Which shoulder left or right???