Lack of Affection

It's been so long, Since I felt another human's touch. Some nights, I want to go spoon. I miss that very much. It's been years since I've been cuddled. I always sleep alone. But my fears of affection, are very well known. I miss being held tight, by a pair of strong arms. I haven't been hugged, By anyone in so long. I miss feeling wanted. I miss being kissed. I miss feeling loved. Which I'm not sure exists. The lack of affection, can cause me physical pain. But having that affection, Can also do the same.