Just Kill Me Now

Just slit me know as I pray for mercy. I go into war, without a chance. I would rather die for my country, Than let you kill me now. You're holding me back from what I can be. I'm trapped in your warfare as you ablaze my life. You light up another cigarette, As I pray for just one more breath. You smoke and you smoke, until my lungs are as black as your heart. I feel myself collapsing, as I grab out in pain, Hoping to find your saving hands. But you mock me, you shove me, you hold me down, And know I ask, for you just to kill me now. My life is unbearable, with you controlling me. I'd rather die a thousand deaths, Then let you destroy me. I'd rather die from war, then have my life destroyed by my father. I'm dieing now, I'm far too gone. I beg you all just to remember this. I am gone, this is true; but it isn't a bad thing. For I want you all to remember, That I died for you, so you can know how you influence my life. The blood running down my wrist, the bullet pushing through my brain. The pills churning my stomach until I can cry out my last tear. As I scream out, "This tear is for you, for you were, are, and will always be my birth, my life, and my death." As I fall to the ground, without you there. So Kill Me Now, so I will never have to go through this hell known as life. If this is love, then let me die. For your kiss, is the last thing that I, I will ever feel...