Just a Figment

Holding back the tears and tryna be strong. Pretending to everyone that nothing is wrong, So I put on a show just like a clown but under that fake smile lies a real frown. Feels like I have just been buried alive. Finding it hard to breathe I’m trying to survive. feelings have been lost, heart’s turned stone cold. Now pain, hurt and anger is what it holds. I choke on my words as they ask if i'm okay I don’t want them to feel any dismay Realized I’m alone, have to pick up the pieces Want to run, but can’t, my energy decreases. Losing my strength as the darkness invades. Giving up now somehow seems okay. Never thought that I could be so weak And all mornings would feel so utterly bleak. Tired of songs that make me more depressed. True words, though can’t help listening to the rest. Some bring back memories that make me smile. But what’s the use when it only last for a while. Losing all the hope and faith I had in love, Something I believed was straight from above That moment I thought my life would start anew, Was just a figment sadly captured with you.