Jealousy

I feel empty from time to time, The love I have for you is true. In one breathe I tell you of your perfection, In the next I made you feel so blue. It’s like a button that keeps me safe. A way to keep me from harm. I adore you with all my heart, that’s when my mind hits the alarm. All I ever wanted was a girl like you, Full of love, caring and kind. You are too perfect for words, You drive me completely out of my mind. Jealousy is not a word I like to use, It echoes a feeling of pain Making me think irrationally, I end up shutting you out in the rain. I see the tears roll down your cheek, As you look at me blurred vision. You radiate pain, hurt and anger, Hating what I’ve done, I made a final decision. You look at me, say you need me. You ask me to stay and touch my face. I don’t deserve all this love from you, But you stand tall with ultimate grace. I’m dying inside as I hate that I’ve hurt you. I’m crying that I’ve made you numb. I never want to hurt you again, Jealous is what I become.