It's Coming

My head is tired My body is failing fast I try so hard to come first But know my place is last So frightened so scared Curled like a child without her teddy Just when I think its over It starts again and I'm not ready Battling hard everyday Who will win, it or me I try to stand up Yet all the while its laughing at me Sees the one thing I hold dear Uses it to hurt me to the core 'You may love him But I will keep you as you were before' 'One step forward I will come right in' 'To destroy the happiness you think you have Your type sink, they never swim' 'I will take your self respect Make you feel so low' 'Everytime you look in the mirror You will be looking at a horror show' 'I will dip your toes in happiness Make you feel secure and free' 'Set the alarm to ring like hell So you wake up and know its me being me' 'To remind you this happiness is momentary And just when you think I have gone' 'I will emerge even stronger To bring you down where you belong' 'I will wake you in your sleep With an anxiety to take a knife' 'And there will be no other option Than to cut me from your life' 'As the blood pours Again I have won' 'Then laugh to myself What a fool you are, my job here is done'..