Is Trust An Emotion

Is trust an emotion? I pause jus for a moment hopin to ponder abt how ths elephant got to sitin on ma shoulder im supposed to b a soldier bt ths comotion in ma mind seems to threaten my exposure wonder how it became a secret, that i was jus flesh and bone just a man cast some darknes on ma paper so i cn c ths world is bizzare the light is blinding me the ones i claim my own cannot bare the site of me and ths is all because of me, but who is me? Faults and mistakes superimposd often look the same but mistakes only become wat they r once atempted nuthing ventured nuthng gained nuthin ventured nuthng lost so y shld i apologize? When attempts u expect of me give birth to my mistakes i have failed, i have been victorious what then defines the man i am? The moments i overcame? Or the mistakes that came and stayed to remind me to b wiser o die bt death aint alway when u stop breathn. Sumitmes its just wen ur life loses meanin wen u lose what at the time seemd to b ur reason 4 breathn.. In dat very moment, even 4 an instance, u r dead... bt i go bek to the question is trust an emotion.? Trust is takin a leap, a giant 1, neva pausin to blink. Even wen u knw that the fal is wot envitably cums next,. trust is holdin ur breath til ur lungs burn... Hopin.... N hop is all dat saves us we fal in slow motion creatin da illusion dat mayb.... n jus mayb we cn fly,. Bt ofcourse we cnt, cyclic story always ends wit a bg thud, as da knight trades hs shining armor for a stockin mask he becums the thug... And da princess takes a bow, her interest was al a pretence.. So no, trust is nt an emotion its a choice... Its a risk, calculated o nt dat we willingly take.. We cnt live behind a glas window lest da world myt hurt us.... Coz pain is always beta than the emptines of nuthn... Ths our love myt hurt sum day.. Bt its beautiful today nw knwin al this.. A simple question i must enquire.. Do u trust me?