Irrevocably Infected

I was on a journey The destination wasn't clear I needed to experiment And challenge every fear I was slightly unsure But not at all lost He lured me in with his mind And the price of my heart it cost I wanted to have just a taste But then we really connected Aside from everything I ever knew I was irrevocably infected I tried to make sense of it all Then easily dismissed the thought I hadn't realized I was hooked And too distracted to know I was caught I mean, I was on a serious high The one you always chase after And the feeling was just so good Like those deep bursts of sudden laughter It's not easy to admit But the addiction became clear Every time he was far away I needed him close, needed him near I urgently needed to detox It was time to break away I managed to stay clean For 3 weeks and 5 days Put up all my guards Avoided all the traps And when I thought I was strong enough I easily relapsed