Irresistible Faded Memory

My heart is crushed yet is hushed,
I feel rushed, 
Six years was long,
I felt there is something wrong,
When I am with you, I don't feel strong,
Strongly feel things are prolonging.

Promises that you made,
Nothing came along, yet it fade.
Time is wasting into nothing,
Nothing worth while to keep.
We are still in step one,
My veins are popping out of anger,
My head is blowing out of pressure.


The storm has come,
My face is blank with no expressions,
Should I run?Panic?Relax?
Sorrow comes with a flow,
The mistakes that I made it shows.
Scared to face my fear,
Yet is near my dear,
Running without a parachute,
Walking on the clouds,


Not sure where life is taking me?
Curiosity kicks in,
Was all this a a long dream?
I want that dream to be true,
Your multi-personality is suffocating me,
Feeling your unpleasant status,
Makes me not want to be with you,
Question,questioning, questions?
You are unbalancing my weight,
I have always know that you are the one,
Until you ruined everything of my existence, 
With a long distance,
Now you made me unsure,
You are changing in a bad way,
I am scared to love you,
Because I don't recognize you as you.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Babcock Avatar
October 15, 2012 at 5:39 PM
A sticky situation but the answer is simple--if you do not understand him and he has changed so much --let him go and count it as life experience and a blessing that you were wise enough to see thru his disguise. A heartfelt poem and only your heart can answer your questions. love phyl
Neshat Avatar
January 15, 2013 at 3:17 AM
thank you for our advise :)
Rahim Avatar
October 7, 2012 at 11:43 AM
very touchy poem, you have done a great job. i like your poems.
Neshat Avatar
October 9, 2012 at 11:57 PM
Thank you.
Dietrich Avatar
October 7, 2012 at 10:58 AM
Full of emotion and being perplexed by someone changing. It is awful to have someone like this in one's life I think, but worse if you love them!
Neshat Avatar
October 9, 2012 at 11:57 PM
I wish I didn't love him, I just not sure how to handle this situation :(
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