Internal Pain

In the depths of my wonders where doubts reside, Where my darkest secrets eat me up inside, where my intrusive thoughts and my fears collide, A world of darkness hides in in my mind. The sun may shine and the cardinals may sing, The eagles may grow up and sprout their wings. External people think I have everything, But deep in my soul there's a constant sting. Others pass by, their smiles bright, But they don't know the war I fight. I only see darkness where others see light, But no one bothers to ask if I'm alright. Truth be told I'm fine alone, As solitude is all I've known. The more I've lived, the more I've grown, To realize my heart is stone. I've always been different, since I was born. When others rejoice, I tend to mourn. When others feel whole, I tend to feel torn. And when I cry out, I am met with scorn.