In my own utopia world

How should I feel Is this even real Did someone stop time Just for me Everything I dreamt of The world will interfere I don't expect you to be happy for me Yet me, you will not break I still envision my wedding Even though some say it's not for I If I give up on this testament I will have failed because I did not try My family will one day be in my home My child I will help her with her homework In my utopia world I am grateful for the ones who loved me Who did the unthinkable I swear Although I can't promise to never in life hurt you When you reach out to call I will be there!