In My Heart...

In here I don't even know where to start. In here it's from the bottom of my heart, In here my feelings go to the extreme. In here my feelings are whispered in a dream. In my stomach I feel butterflies, In me you make the best rise, In school all we did was study, In essence I thought you saw me as your buddy. In time the days and semester is almost past, In you I wanted it to last. In signs I hinted about how I felt, Inside for you my heart did melt. In an instant you asked a question of me, In nervousness I got lightheaded and could barely see. In my head I couldn't think, In the aftermath I began to sink. In my thoughts it was only pretend, In real life you asked me to be your boyfriend. In hindsight I can't believe what I did say, In regret I think about it everyday. In life I want this nightmare to go, In actuality I still can''t believe I said no. In your eyes I see love that is true, In happiness, the only person I can ever be with is you. In my head I always beat myself up and ask why? In time if you become single I will once again try. In the present you seem to be happy I know, In my world you are once again a dream and I must let you go.