I'M Nervous and Careless, I'M Sad and Mad

I'm nervous and careless, I'm sad and mad. It'll be what it will be. Because it is what it is. Nervous and careless, sad and mad. My belly tight, it hurts real bad. My heart beats fast, i feel it in my hand. The loss in my eyes, like a deer in headlights. It makes me ill and filled with fright. This world closing in with unexpected winds, Twirls and swirls me around, until I the hit ground. When it's all over is when I'll begin. There and then i will finally be found. For now in my present in anxious torture. I'm nervous about this and careless for that. I'm sad from the past and mad for the future. I will face without choice my mistakes. The storm I won't be able to escape. It'll be what it will be And I'll do what i have to do. But I'm nervous and careless, I'm sad and mad. Why do I do see all the deeds done bad.