If Only They Knew

If only they knew all the heartbreak I've been through they wouldn't ask all the questions that they do. If only they knew my deepest darkest most secret feelings they couldn't judge me the way they used to. If only they knew how I felt inside all those peoples ridicule would turn into saddened pitty towards me. If only they knew what my actions indicated they'd never blame me for all lost matters. If only they knew why I block myself off from the world they'd probably be blocked off from it to. If only they knew how much thngs really meant to me they'd stop me from harming myself to fulfill my destiny. If only they knew why I stopped my heart from believing they'd bring me someone to my trust into. If only they knew why love wasn't an option for me they wouldn't tell me I wrong to hate. If they only knew the truth to my depression I wouldn't have to suffer all the pain I'm in. If only they knew the real girl behind the mask I wouldn't have to constantly hide my true identity.If only they knew how hard it was to live this life they would understand why I don't want to live it. If only they knew the scars left from past times they could understand my hearts wounded to. If only they knew how threatened it was to feel happy they would dare not to ask me why I'm mad. If only they knew why exactly I hated myself they could learn from my mistakes and start to love me. If only they knew all lifes little dirty secrets they would always be led to believe mine was the cleanest one. If only they knew really how hard life was they'd cut like me to stay out of it. If only they knew