If Only

The thoughts of a dying man contemplate the life he lived In constrast to where he would love to live. Forgive me if You will but I will not mention, so plese don't sanction me from Your thoughts wen you find out I died way before my time and Said nothing to you. You see my greatest wish is if only, if only you could see the Pain in my eyes in between our laughters. Pardon me but I do Not pretend, I marely transcend my mind to greater thoughts To pass the time and ease my heart frm the knowlege of my Iniquity. If only you could see the joy you bring into my life Even in the mist of an urgument I embrace you. Yet you do Not see the decay in my face as this perpertual death intices Me to slumber. If only. If only you could save me you would, But my being wouldn't let you because my soul would never Confront you. So even as I take my last breath blushing as I Look deep into your eyes I knw dat I am enjoying my last Breath wishing only dat u knew dat I waving goodbye.