If It Hadn't Been for You

If It Hadn't Been for You We stayed out late at night: back then; In the warmer months of the season. We would go down to the lake for fun. If it hadn't been for you: We took along some music to listen to; We would go out on the pier; We were looking up into the sky: at the moon. If it hadn't been: Then our eyes caught each other: As I looked into her eyes; Those intoxicating green eyes, she had. If it hadn't been for her: You looked right past our gaze; When you wanted to go; Filtering through my deep soul. But, I realized I had to make you see; Just how deep down you mean to me; And, with my guard let down; For a love that I thought would last: it did. You have gotten past my wall: Somehow; I knew I wanted and needed; more of you. I needed you to have it all; with you; You're my sugar, my honeydew. I wanted you to see, Now that you've had the chance to see; It all was true; it had to be; It's always been about you; my only you, My lover: my best friend. I needed her to see; But that was so many years ago; It might even be a blur to me, If it hadn't been: for her, you see. But if it hadn't been for her; Coming by to check on me; too, see, That I was still this mess inside. If it hadn't been: Then she walked across the room: I find myself still yearning; for more of you. Thoughts of us; rushed through my mind. If it hadn't been for her: My lover, such a good time; We had over the years–oh yeah; But I'm still lost; without you here. Now, I find myself blue: Without you, I sure do miss you, dear. These tears; want to—fall. R.I.P., Shannon, I love you!