If It Hadn't Been For You

We stayed out late at night: back then;
In the warmer months of the season
We would go down to the lake for fun.

If it hadn't been for you:       

We took along some music to listen to;
We would go out on the pier
We were looking up into the sky: at the moon.

If it hadn't been:	
 
Then our eyes caught each other:
As I looked into her eyes
Those intoxicating green eyes, she had
If it hadn't been for her:

You looked right past our gaze;
When you wanted to go
Filtering through my deep soul.

But, I realized I had to make you see;

Just how deep down you mean to me;
And, with my guard let down
For a love that I thought would last: it did.

You have gotten past my wall:
Somehow
I knew I wanted and needed; more of you
I needed you to have it all; with you
You're my sugar, my honeydew.

I wanted you to see,

Now that you've had the chance to see; 
It all was true; it had to be
It's always been about you; my only you
My lover: my best friend
I needed her to see; 

But that was so many years ago;
It might even be a blur to me
If it hadn't been: for her, you see.

But if it hadn't been for her;
Coming by to check on me; too, see
That I was still this mess inside
If it hadn't been:

Then she walked across the room: 
I find myself still yearning; for more of you
Thoughts of us; rushed through my mind.

If it hadn't been for her: 
My lover, such a good time
We had over the years–oh yeah
But I'm still lost; without you here.

Now, I find myself blue:
Without you, I sure do miss you
These tears; want to—fall.

R.I.P., Shannon, I love you!
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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Grieves Avatar
June 28, 2023 at 2:58 AM
This is so very touching and beautiful (and personal too ofcourse). Thank you for this and the vulnerability which makes it a precious piece.
Rone Avatar
December 23, 2022 at 8:29 AM
It frustrates me to be unable to render such needed comfort to a stranger, but believe me when I say that I am sorry for your loss. Sincerely -Ken
Darnell Sr Avatar
December 23, 2022 at 8:44 PM
Hi, Ken! Merry Christmas & Happy New Year to you and your family. That's a very heartfelt thing to say to a stranger, but she has long passed on, my friend, sixteen years now! Our anniversary is December 27th. Had she still been alive, and she is in me, married twenty-six years if she was. Silver Anniversary last year. Thank you, Ken, for the gesture, that's kind and I am humbled. God Bless you and your family. Best of Wishes, William
De Beaulieu Avatar
December 10, 2022 at 4:33 PM
Hello William Darmell Sr. You were lucky to have found your true love. You now have goos memories of her. blessing my
De Beaulieu Avatar
December 11, 2022 at 11:15 AM
Hello William, It is your poem you created it so you can change it as many times you want to. You will have a life time of good memories of her. I will visit often. Wishing you a Merry Christmas. and a Happy New Year. William.
Darnell Sr Avatar
December 10, 2022 at 8:40 PM
Hello, Darlene! She left me a lifetime of memories to go back and look upon. She was my all, however, this was not supposed to be published at this point, but I wasn't paying attention and had my mind in other places. I appreciate the time you've taken to comment and visit, it means a lot. I do this all the time. But this poetry or lyric will change several times I'm sure. Best of Wishes, William
Kendrick Avatar
October 25, 2022 at 2:04 PM
The ifs and what if's sometimes rule our lives. Enjoyed reading your creative work. Sara
Darnell Sr Avatar
November 1, 2022 at 12:16 PM
Thanks, Sara! I appreciate your candor and your comment and visit. Best of Wishes, William
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