If I Long For You More Than Death

winds of separation you blew towards me when you set the boundaries of longing. it was you who overfilled the bowl I held out then whilst spilling the wine, you laughed. how did you, then, walk away? stumbling and staggering, I tried following you but your intoxication overpowered me. you create the longing yet you ask why. why? I wish I knew too. keep me or don't. ill be lower than your other lovers. because I cannot fulfil your standard. My incompetence is my death, the grave I shall lay in. I am not worthy of even a drop of your love yet I asked for a shower. like a fool meeting a fool, I met myself. and like death after death, I lived for the sake of seeing you. I lived for the sake of hearing you. if I had met myself earlier, I would've blinded myself because I shouldn't look at you with my unworthy eyes. eyes that can't love you properly; eyes that cant trust you fully. because you are a shapeshifter who shows me different shades of one colour. master of change.