I Wonder

You know I wonder, what's our position look like to you? The emotions we felt for eachother, to you were they ever true? Nah, you were looking right through, searching for a place to nest You found my weakness, piled the sticks and layed down for your rest I gave you my best, at least give me a little recognition I'm still trying, as you watch me limping, stuck in this position My skin's itching, find me a cure or leave me to ache The weight that you've already given is more than I can take Through my eyes, I saw your presence as another apendage Now the colors are black and white, the shades of an afterimage So I stay in this orphanage, hidden behind these walls I lost the spark to my flame, and drank the gas to it all How did I fall? I could've swore I was standing straight But if it's not meant to be, let it be 'cause its fate And open the gate, to better things let the wind blow When people step on the fallen leaves, hear the crunch and let go It's destiny, so let me be free, to fly high I wanna rest in Heaven, and when the times right I'll glide But until then, I'm gonna have to learn to survive And someday I'll feel no pain, until then, I'm alive