I Will Survive

~I Will Survive~ She was born premature, thats what her mum told her growing up, she noticed that she was slow in reading, concentrating, and was bullied by many students, too much pain during growing up, made her commit to herself, that she will overcome her retardation, will gradually graduate, by studying more than anyone else, it took place always in her garden with a full moon to enlighten her thoughts. To remember her daily health problems, she started writing poetry on a log sheet witch she will share one day reading it with everyone, as she was determined to become a writer. One day she woke up feeling the stillness in her brain, she got worried, her mind stopped functioning, she felt dead when she felt the stillness in her heart beat, she got worried her veins were blocked due to her anxiety, when she felt the blur through her sight, she got worried her eyelids could not blink. She felt the quietude while standing up she cried her strength gave up and fear took over she felt like yelling out loud, yelled and heard no echo. The Joy of living abandoned her nothing left in her to nourish it when she felt under judgmental power those causes brought her straight running towards her home opened her window to breath and watch what she had planted when she was not alone. But today the moonlight was shining the outside view exists but she sees nothing loneliness gets to her so often lately she does nothing about it she just sits numb on her bed listening to the sound of the clock chiming with the hope when she awakes from her loneliness at the end of this day her darkness will light up as a start. Days passed she just read a book of living in the Now she will adapt knowing its a challenge in each individuals within as not to change is much easier to feed our brain than to feed it with a beautiful happy surrounding wherever we are and with whom we are even alone we can choose either to be happy or sad. She asked herself yesterday did she really know what is positive from negative if she thinks well positive is loving to live negative is disliking to live both taught her to let go of false self imagines and superficial ego she took steps to dictate her own goals and desires it made it more real it gave her the push she needed to feed her energy with such depth of sharing her knowledge with all of you readers that is how writing poetry became a whole part of her life reading poems made her think positive reading and writing opened up her thoughts to reach out for words to place them in her poetry she is in love again she made a huge step to liberate her anger against humanity. Her hidden qualities never shined before always she felt gloomy writing gave her back the self assurance writing raised all her senses to a higher scale yes she did that all by herself as she gained freedom of speech in writing poetry. She already brought back a smile into her hidden heart she will walk through a road where beauty surrounds her entity feel a change a sudden change of watching the birth of another tomorrow to look outside her window and watch the white shadow of the moon that light which helped her become who she is now. She will feel safe and alive she will survive because poetry lived in her it became her utmost shadow. Terry. 20/12/12