Anne-Lise Andresen Poet Narrative

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- I Was Too Young To Understand -

He let me see his scars,
they was as deep as a bottomless ocean
Every day his demons played to dance
Like salt in the wounds, a pitiful truth
The dark voices he heard in the shadows
It was not an illusion,
he had heard them for as long
as he could remember
A pain so unbearable
and a horror that stuck in his soul
He had no power 
to go in the hurricane's gust of wind
The weight bowl was rocking ...
not strong enough to handle it

A deep and confidential conversation
between him and me
I could feel the powerlessness 
and the fear to say or do anything
which could make the situation worse
Was it enough to just be there ... show respect ?
At the same time accept the powerlessness
Reality had to exist somewhere
It requires courage to prove weak

He took his life two days later,
abrupt and brutal
A choice between the demons 
and the deep blue ocean
The raindrops played a somber melody
Where was the light when everything got dark ?
In the days that followed, I cried
... until the well was dried
I was too young to understand
Rest in peace my friend






06/02/2020
Sun :) - A-L Andresen
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Regina Mcintosh July 7, 2021 at 1:45 PM This is so sad. I've had family members commit suicide and know your pain somewhat... so so sad. God bless you. You did a wonderful job with the words. Powerful - penetrating the heart. God bless you sweet friend. Love, Gina

Indiana Shaw June 29, 2021 at 5:18 PM A thought provoking write, Sunshine, with a well chosen image, I must say there are times I read a poem and cry, this being one . . . : ( Anne-Lise Andresen June 30, 2021 at 4:33 AM - Thanks for lovely comments, Indiana ... me too :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Mahtab Bangalee June 28, 2021 at 2:26 AM beautiful poetic writings Anne-Lise Andresen June 30, 2021 at 4:32 AM - Thanks for lovely comments, Mahtab :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Alison Hodges February 11, 2020 at 3:12 PM The kind of poem I aspire to write! Well done! Anne-Lise Andresen February 12, 2020 at 1:38 PM - Thank you so much for your comments, Alison :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Silent One February 9, 2020 at 10:48 AM Wow...one of your best poems...I can see you wrote this from a deep place in your heart...I can relate to this poem in a way....Deeply emotive write . Anne-Lise Andresen February 9, 2020 at 1:41 PM - In life, things are written, erased and sometimes rewritten ... because it is in your soul ... thoughts and feelings that must come out - Thanks for lovely comments, my friend S.O. :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Vijay Pandit February 8, 2020 at 8:51 AM So sad, yet such a powerful reminder of human suffering when someone is ready to simply give up. You wrote this well, Anne-Lise! Anne-Lise Andresen February 8, 2020 at 12:29 PM - No matter how difficult and black life looks Vijay, it is important not to give up hope that it can be better - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Heidi Sands February 7, 2020 at 2:23 PM Oh, this poem really hit me. You have written it so well. I completely understand. I knew someone who recently took their life and there is no answers yet as to why. Take care Anne-Lise :) Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 2:51 PM - The purpose of suicide is not always obvious, Heidi ... often accompanied by great despair and uncertainty - It may be coincidence what the choice will be - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Paul Callus February 7, 2020 at 2:10 PM This is a beautiful heartfelt narrative, Anne-Lise. So sad! Was it enough to just be there ... so hard to answer, and as you say, you were 'too young to understand'. Happy weekend & Hugs // paul Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 2:21 PM - Maybe I could "save him" today, Paul ... with many years as a nurse ... - and we all know a little about this disease ... I will never get an answer .... - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Jennifer Proxenos February 7, 2020 at 12:10 PM Wow Sunshine Smile what a gem - and how sad - one of our relations lost their son suddenly and abruptly about 2 years ago - he committed suicide and to this day they don't know why, he just left a note I love you Mom and Dad - he was 20 years old - he gassed himself in his car. I couldn't believe it when they called to tell us. Blessings and hugs dear friend. Jenny. Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 1:18 PM - A young neighbor boy did the same two years ago ... a tragic event ... Suicide among children and adolescents is much more common than people think, dear Jenny - I wrote a poem for him "- The Barents Sea -" 08.05.2018- Sindre, only 19 years old ... jumped into the sea - alone at night guard on the Kystvakt W320 - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Sandra Adams February 7, 2020 at 10:59 AM wow...powerful...I have known a few that took their own lives and I don't think at any age we ever understand … great penning...I could see and feel the emotions... best wishes in the contest... hugs Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 1:06 PM - A suicide or suicide attempt is tragic no matter who it hits, but it makes a bigger impression that a children choose the death, Sandra - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Richard Lamoureux February 7, 2020 at 8:24 AM This is so sad. I hope it is not from a real experience. If it is my deepest condolences. Hugs Rick. Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 9:01 AM - Thank you so much for your comments, Richard :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Kai Michael Neumann February 7, 2020 at 4:07 AM That is very sad. But in truth suicide is a reality and we may not be able to help. Some thing we cannot change. I lost two friends to it, one quick in an instant and the other by protracted usage of pills and alcohol. I am proud that as a doctor I never lost a patient who was in my active care, but I guess that involved a lot of luck. Suicide also runs in my wife's family. It is what it is. Best wishes to you, Kai Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 12:57 PM - We can call it skill or luck ... but, today we understand what it is about ... those who have such thoughts and demons needs profesjonell treatment - You have every reason to be proud, Kai :) - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Panagiota Romios February 6, 2020 at 4:57 PM So very sad. We cannot help someone like this. Give them the suicide hotline number. Get out of their way. Sounds cold but suicide hotline people are trained in listening. I am not. I get drawn into their story. I, too, experienced friends suicide three times..and I did not know what to do. I Think all countries have these numbers. Love poems with the Poet in it. Panagiota xx Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 3:35 AM - This happened many, many years back, Panagiota - Few people talked about such feelings ... it was a shame - There was no suicide hotline number to call - Besides, many did not have a phone - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Gordon Mcconnell February 6, 2020 at 2:16 PM Such a powerful beautiful piece Anne-Lise, so very sad but you paint this so skilfully and touchingly. Blessings be yours, Gordon Anne-Lise Andresen February 7, 2020 at 3:36 AM - Thank you so much for your comments, Gordon :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Carolyn Devonshire February 6, 2020 at 1:27 PM You showed great courage in your desire to help your friend, Sunshine. I'm so sorry this happened to you, Hon. You have a wonderful, caring heart and your poem touched me deeply. Hugs, Carolyn Anne-Lise Andresen February 6, 2020 at 2:10 PM - Depression is a deeply lonely condition. ... - A desire to help and understand what is difficult can be replaced by confusion, anger, turmoil, helplessness ... especially when one is a child, dear Carolyn - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Daniel Turner February 6, 2020 at 10:57 AM Very sad write, AL. It would be hard to live with but knowing you tried should be some consolation. Good luck in contest. Should do well. Anne-Lise Andresen February 6, 2020 at 11:17 AM - No consolation can wipe away such deep thoughts and experiences, Daniel - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Chris Green February 6, 2020 at 10:53 AM Wow, that was very sad and heart breaking my friend but you wrote this so well. I don't see any reason this won't land on the top of the contest winners list. Anne-Lise Andresen February 6, 2020 at 11:20 AM - Whoever lives on, living with the grief ... - Thank you so much for your comments, Chris :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Tom Cunningham February 6, 2020 at 5:46 AM A tragic verse Anne, so well written, sadly many suffer that way and can't see light at the end of the tunnel and for them the only escape is suicide. Good luck. Tom Anne-Lise Andresen February 6, 2020 at 11:14 AM - A tragic and terrible story that no children should experience, Tom - Thank you so much for your comments :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)