I Recieved Your Message

Shocked by this today: After so many years I received your message, wanting to talk to me You had never done me wrong, but with your father, there was a history Even with our old connection, I couldn’t trust the motives or take a risk So, I ignored it and put forth minimal info, and moved on quite brisk Later when I returned a while, I received another message from you I assumed you wanted to pick my brain and maybe return me to the past Back to the trauma, to get answers from me, to things where all pain lasts Your father a cop, had taught you well and yet he had done so wrong His behavior mixed with all your smiles and kindness you brought along Again I didn’t answer, conversations on line I very much limit anyway What I choose to post, may just be a painting or scenic photo for the day I hardly check sometimes, as the days go by at this particular place But today I did, and there it was staring at me, a photo of your face A classmate had posted it, with a paragraph in writing to say goodbye Two days ago, you took your life and no-one on there, knows why Then as I scrolled, I saw someone’s comment and I couldn’t read anymore Asking why, if he’s loved by so many, didn’t he reach out for help before? Heidi Sands 12/31/19