I Have An Ugly Friend

I have an ugly friend Who scares me once in a while On the outside he's quite happy Enthusiastic with a smile He's filled with positive thoughts And will give the shirt off his back Hard working and steadfast Of ambition he does not lack But at his core is someone else A stranger I don't like Filled with shadows n darkness Depression n negativity alike Build a mountain I've seen him do Unstoppable in his pursuit Fearless to take on any task Boundless energy absolute Goals mapped out years to come No problem stands in his way Sacrifice is his middle name Success regardless the price to pay But on the other side When things get to hard to bear Don't recognize this gentleman As he's filled with such despair Doesn't happen very often Maybe every once in a while This man filled with optimism Become extremely vile A man depressed beyond belief Crippled by its clutch Paralyzed without recourse Immobilized by such Self-doubt n fear takes its grip Worthlessness and in chains He falls to all carnal sins Coping for all the deep pains There's great scars and wounds That most people'll never know Don't know how this great man Is reduced to such lowly woe How can one so strong and true Digress to this degree I search endlessly for an answer You see, this friend, is me