I Did This To Myself

The days go by so faintly, But the pain throbs in my heart. I wish I could do this over, And begin again from the start. Words are scattered bullets, That left my big mouthed gun. They targeted my happiness, And killed away the fun. · The echoes of the casings, Still cling within my mind. If I could touch Dali’s clock, I’d repaint the hands of time. To a time...when I was with you, To restore all of my wrongs. But this life replays to me, Like a sad love song. · My actions are still hazy, But the results are all too clear. If I could cast some magic, I’d snap my fingers to bring you here. But life is not that easy, We make things so hard. What started out as easy, Is signed with sorrow’s regards. · Man, I’m in a daze, A dream I can’t wake from. As the world moves around me, My emotions are still numb. As I achieve my accomplishments, From all the things I do. Believe me...they mean nothing, If I can’t share them with you. · As you rest on your happy pillows, I toss and turn on mine. I have come to my conclusion, That separation is divine. Maybe one day you’ll return, To color in this black and white sky. Nothing I do...can reclaim you, And only God knows why. · I’m speeding to get nowhere, While staring in my rearview. The road has gotten longer, With still no signs of you. My patience is on empty, Burning fumes of creative wealth. But when the rubber meets the road, I did this to myself...
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August 1, 2012 at 12:13 AM
PUAL, stopping by to read a couple of poems. CONGRATULATIONS!! :-) with your featured poem of the week. Goodnight~ LUV~ PD
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March 17, 2010 at 2:35 PM
I hope not real life but just an anguish write sharing how you would feel in that situation..If real life I hope that things get better soon..Keep the creative pen flowing. Sara
Richards Avatar
March 17, 2010 at 1:18 PM
So many failed relationships are like this, filled with regrets and what-ifs . You are not alone with these same, sad, thoughts....but expression of such thoughts, is part of the healing and moving on....and each time one learns, and this can be a good thing. What a heart-felt poem....very touching and so well done, Raul. Love, Carrie
Bathsheba Avatar
March 17, 2010 at 7:12 AM
Very strong well contructed write Paul - I enjoyed reading such depth - Thanks for a fab share -:)
Chircop Avatar
March 17, 2010 at 6:33 AM
Raul,hope this sadness,this loss of love isnt true.I love the way you used Dali in your poem and re the black and white sky,i love it.two days ago i was thinking of white clouds in black sky,and was gonna use black and white velvet silk sky,then i used moonless sky instead.wd were thinkin alike,lol.great i love it-Charma.
Devonshire Avatar
March 17, 2010 at 5:56 AM
Hope you're not really experiencing this type of loss, Raul. This is a very sad and moving poem, beautifully written. Love, Carolyn
Lusha Avatar
March 17, 2010 at 4:52 AM
A really great piece, love the flow..wonderful....Allie
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March 17, 2010 at 4:17 AM
Soup mail again and I think this is a great write :)
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March 17, 2010 at 4:06 AM
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