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I Am Who I Am

I am who I am Were you to ask where I’m from my past my tale my next of kin the answer lies in who tells my narrative my twist what kind of spin My autobiography is quickly shown in who I am will be in time past present future blend in context and contingency overt and sublime No doubt the product of genes and socialisation is rather pertinent thus mixing and mingling draws frameworks but is also quite reticent German ancestry Lower Saxon and East Prussian born after the War struggling with Genocide Holocaust trans-generational down to my core Grew up in Hamburg somewhat lonely understood by not many but few too young in my school year a class clown a rebel a critic because I knew Teachers could not reject or downgrade me since I got full marks in exams so I carved out my niche opposed authority of Messieurs and Mesdames A late child of the Student Revolution an exchange to California ensued where hot love struck me like balm on my wounds with Gigi from Peru After graduation I rejected being supported by my father and joined the Army to gain independence yet the method to gain freedom now seems very barmy Could not leave the Forces despite pretty vigorous conscientious objection did my best to help others as a medical doctor in humanistic inception My duties brought me to Wales by the Irish Sea with five children and marriage country medic and farm house guiding my kids and then nuptial miscarriage Depression struck no light at the end of the tunnel just darkness and void too much drink downcast in my mental wheel chair and almost destroyed Went to rehab in South Africa for treatment where God-incidence came where I met my wife best friend lover soulmate who had suffered the same Now I sit in the sun in South Africa stopped medicine write story and poem reinvent my life some inner child stuff self-actualisation and certainly growing New awareness novel perspectives pacifism philosophy and many questions but the knowledge that kindness love and compassion are more than suggestions My most intimate companion apart from my gorgeous wife is depression both showed me my path journey and meaning my own life’s repossession So few words about where I come from who I am will become and will be so if you wish to explore more of my roots and my future please read my poetry

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Date: 8/5/2017 2:40:00 AM
Thank you Dan. Yes, life is full of surprises, hey. Many wishes, Kai
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Date: 8/3/2017 4:13:00 AM
It sounds as if you have had one full life after another, Kai. What an insightful write into your soul. Keep the words flowing and many of your demons of depression will be exorcised. Congratulations on your win and pursuit of life.
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Date: 8/3/2017 4:13:00 AM
It sounds as if you have had one full life after another, Kai. What an insightful write into your soul. Keep the words flowing and many of your demons of depression will be exorcised. Congratulations on your win and pursuit of life.
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Date: 7/5/2017 1:46:00 PM
Hi Kai , nice to meet , it is a great pleasure to read your write , your life so far is a life of a giver and I thank you for sharing your story . being honest with ones self we share :)) hugs from Ireland my friend:))
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 8/2/2017 2:07:00 AM
Thank you so much Niall. I only picked up your comment just now. Many wishes and greetings to you and to Ireland. Just across from my home for 20 years in Solva, Pembrokeshire. Kai
Date: 7/4/2017 9:05:00 AM
Oh my goodness! This is why I always miss your work when I stay away from this site for a while. Your choice of words and perfect blend of a cute message is beyond description. This is definitely good..
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 7/5/2017 2:31:00 AM
Thank you Funom. That is such a great compliment. I am just trying to be honest and honest with myself. Many wishes, Kai
Date: 6/22/2017 3:32:00 PM
Very enlightening bio, Kai. Such a diverse life backstory. A man presumed to possess many talents ... your best gift though is embracing the truth of who you are, why you, and most importantly when you will be ... at that future place where you will be as was intended for eternity. As always, you are a breath of fresh air, my friend. Great poem. Love always.
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Date: 6/24/2017 2:27:00 AM
Thank you Freddie. Your comment makes my day so far. You are right, the Universe is out there. And it is honest, so we might as well try honesty too. Love and Peace brother...
Date: 6/20/2017 1:56:00 AM
Although we are far apart in so many ways, I feel very close to you. Thank you for sharing this.
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 6/21/2017 1:19:00 AM
Thanks Darren. I feel the same...
Date: 6/18/2017 3:33:00 AM
I was spellbound reading your life story to date....and can only imagine what yet will be! You have shared quite an exciting and moving existence. Many blessings for the years to come. Excellent! : )
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 6/19/2017 8:54:00 AM
Thank you Connie. I am doing major tidying up at the house today. A healthy ordered mind in an ordered surrounding? Many wishes to you, Kai
Date: 6/17/2017 7:17:00 AM
Glad to know something of your adventurous life, Kai, thanks for sharing:) you are a great man, doctor and writer:)
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 6/19/2017 8:52:00 AM
Thank you so much for those very kind words. I feel honoured and it kind of makes my day. Lots of wishes to you, Kai
Date: 6/16/2017 4:02:00 PM
I am glad I got to know this part of your life, Kai, your journey is still not over as you know, but with so much more to write about.. ~*
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 6/17/2017 4:04:00 AM
Thank you Eve. When we reflect on the past, we can get a good glimpse of what to do in the future. Many wishes, Kai
Date: 6/16/2017 2:05:00 PM
Thank you for sharing your personal life experiences, Kai...quite full and hectic. With hindsight we realize that some choices made could have been different, but we are not fortune tellers. May the past serve to help build a better future. Regards // paul
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Kai Michael Neumann
Date: 6/17/2017 4:03:00 AM
Thanks for your comment. I believe in honesty, it helps enormously. As they say in AA 'secrets keep you sick' and I have indeed lernt a lot from the past...
Date: 6/15/2017 9:12:00 AM
All the way from South Africa ! you have had a most illustrious and well traveled life and career Kai. You deserve a respite writing poetry after all that...Maria
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Date: 6/16/2017 3:32:00 AM
Thank you Maria, that is very kind of you. I am still feeling guilty at times, not to contribute as a doctor no longer. But life takes peculiar twists sometimes. And poetry is indeed my respite and I can shout with my writing. Thank you again and many wishes, Kai