I Am Trapped Between Two Worlds
I am trapped between two worlds, Lord which one do I choose?
I want both but one leads to an eternity without you.
My heart is racing and my mind isn’t at ease,
I need to make a decision so my soul can have peace.
I’m fighting a battle that seems to have no end,
on the one side I lose my Father,
on the other I lose my friends.
I’m burdened by this quest to find true happiness,
something, anything that will give my soul some rest.
I lay awake crying, the tears running down my cheeks.
It’s like all of heaven is laughing and pointing at me.
I’ve prayed and I’ve cried yet to no avail I see.
You won’t even answer the questions that are plaguing me.
I can’t eat,
I can’t sleep,
I breathe nothing but ice.
I feel like I am in the artic when it’s winter and there is no light.
It’s darkness all around me, I cant see my hand in front of my face.
I try to retrace the steps to righteousness but I seem out of place.
I seem not to belong, but I know I am destined to be here.
So why is leaving everything behind the biggest thing that I fear?
To leave everything is to gain everything but that equation doesn’t add up in my mind.
Through bitterness, pain and suffering I find, that nothing I do or say is helping me make my
situation better.
That’s why I had to sit down and write you this letter.
I figured since you won’t hear my prayers, a letter will do the trick instead.
I’m all out of options and this is the last stop before the train leaves.
I need to hear from you now God, I need to know my destiny.
Am I wasting my time searching for you, have you already turned your back?
Or is there still a second left where you’ll have mercy and let me get back on track?
Copyright © Monique Davis | Year Posted 2009
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