I Am the One

It's two a.m and I'm still sitting here trying to write. I have the comfort of this candle burning low. I have the warmth of a fire right beside me. Yet what you want me to write makes my thoughts and words hard to flow. I just smiled when you said you were gonna sit up. Oh how you wanted to see the process of how I write. I watched you fend off sleep but in the end you had to give up. Watching you asleep on the couch in peace gives me a calm delight. I'm to write about myself and how my poems as you say "just happen". I tell you those words don't come with ease. I'll do my best but it's sometimes hard to write about oneself. Especially when asked, but I will try to please. I'm the one whose words written or spoken will be the truth. There's the times when I'm excited and I will mix up what I want to say. The loved one's in my life including yourself will always come first. I would do anything come night or day. I am the one people sometimes stare at, yet don't really see. Even though my heart burns deeply with dreams, and a fire held deep inside. I may have thick skin but when I'm cut it still pains me. I am the one who is stubborn when I battle with my pride. It's four a.m and your not stirring. I watch you sleep with no disturbance to bring you around. My pen has started with you asleep and my mind is turning, Just watching you, thoughts easily come to me now. Please don't be mad in the morning when you wake. Especially for falling asleep when I began to write. That's how it happens I can't be watched, how I'll make you wait. In the end grinding against sleep I will see you lose the fight. I am the one who writes alone feeling out my thoughts. It's no insult to you it has just always been that way. Many emotions that I filter for each of life's battles I have fought. I am the one who can get scared and find no words to say. I try to explain how there is no hidden pen up my sleeve. I'm the one who loves you and would do all I can. I am the one looking at you now and smiling while you sleep. Soon you will wake and I will give you this to read for it's going on seven a.m