I Am One Woman
I am One Woman
by Lori Maria Walton
Dedicated to women who have suffered abuse around the globe who need hope after the tragedies in everyday life, the disappointments we encounter along the way, and the beauty that remains inside, but we so often fail to see.
Left alone to die in a cell that is limited to your command
Why do women leave their only self
To join as a slave to the one who laughs at their weakness
Deems them unworthy through all tasks
In spite of all the hard work
I stand here amazed at my own naivety
Chasing a dream of what I’m supposed to be
Leaving the love and freedom of who I really am
To begin a life with someone who cares less
Than I ever could
A baby is what I was hoping for
A baby has evaded me
Leaving me only with your spirit of criticism
Whispering to me that somehow, I am really not ok
Even for a moment
Doubt beyond doubt
Piles up to the ceiling
Along with all the initials that stand behind my name
Mocking me that I could only enjoy a false sense
Of victory over anything
Everything I have failed
Nothing have I succeeded in or feel as though I have
Made a mark beyond a small tainted coloring
On the glimpse of life that meets my eyes
In every dawn
Shall I continue this nonsensical dance
Waiting for someone to acknowledge my ability
To provide something valuable to my family, society, and self?
Or shall I retreat into the secrecy of the spirit
That haunts my being
I am one woman
One spirit that wakes every morning
A brief moment do I savor the morning prayer
The burgeoning flowered tree bowing to me and opening its door
To come in and dine
I cannot open my soul again
I cannot be all that I want to be for you as I was
I can only sit beneath this old maple and dream of days
When I fully saw light, hope, and love within each soul
And lifted myself to new heights through a window
That never existed.
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