I Am

i am here, yet not here in my head i am living, yet i am dead i am loud, yet i am not talking i am still, yet i am walking i am happy, yet i am mad i am smiling, yet i am sad i am closed eyes, yet i am open eyes i am the truth, yet i am lies i am healed, yet i am hurt i am flowers, yet i am dirt i am food, yet i am an eating disorder i am a dollar, yet i am a quarter i am death, yet i am life i am a spoon, yet i am a knife i am big, yet i am small i am standing, yet i am the fall i am everything, i am i am i am