However Long It Takes

I am in love with a smile, That fills my stomach with butterflies, I stare back, unconscious, A smile hidden behind a disguise, I am love with a pair of eyes, That look at me now with hate, I search for that little sparkle, A sparkle that was left to disintegrate, I am in love with a nose, That breathes in the air around me, I am left breathless, anticipating the exhale, But there is no longer a steady breeze, I am in love with a pair of ears, The eardrums vibrating to the sound of my voice, Can they honestly not hear me now? Or are they blocking me out by choice? I am in love with an embrace, That sends shivers I can’t soothe, From a boy who no longer has a face, From a boy I once thought I knew, I am envious of a smile, That I no longer get to see, I stare back, hoping, But I can only hear it laughing without me, I am envious of a pair of eyes, Where no tears were shed The day that sparkle vanished, The day I felt less than dead, I am envious of a nose, That deprived me of how I feel, Leaving me on the now scentless road of life, How can someone be both fake and real? I am envious of a pair of ears, That care only for what others say, When will they learn those opinions don’t matter, I don’t know how long I can wait, Are you in love with a girl Who remembers who you were? The girl you now avoid Because you are too embarrassed to be seen with her, Are you envious of a girl Who doesn’t need to hide? Who can stare, effortlessly, And see past your hurtful disguise, There is no need to be envious, Because this girl is just a disgrace, For she will still be in love with this boy, When he finally decides to show everyone else his true face, However long that takes.