Hope

If I ever meet depression in the physical form
I will inflict more damage than a biblical storm.
Invading my mind like satanic parasites, 
feasting on my happiness bite after bite.

I'm hating myself for the person I've become,
I'm helpless to it, pathetic weak and dumb.
Thwarted and fallen, appallingly unproductive.
The torment insurgence transforms me destructive.

I'm useless and failing, increasingly alien,
these aint excuses, it's depression I'm wailing.
I'm left handed, right handed, ADHD,
depression, self loathing and anxiety.

My ambition went missing with drive and dreams,
my confidence in submission to doubt that gleams,
these parasites co-ordinate as an efficient team.
My one weapon is hope, and hope is supreme.

7/6/2019
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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Gauthier Avatar
January 5, 2019 at 6:29 PM
Strong poem, Nick. Well penned indeed. Congrats on your well deserved podium finish.
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April 12, 2022 at 5:16 PM
Thanks Line sorry for the late reply, this is the poem I’ve actually had published and for some reason I forget I even wrote it lol
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January 5, 2019 at 10:21 AM
Congratulations on your win, Nick, great imagery and well thought .. Hugs Eve ~`*
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April 12, 2022 at 5:17 PM
Thank you Eve, sorry for the late reply I’ve only just noticed, I guess this did well in a competition at some point lol an unknown victory lol
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January 5, 2019 at 9:08 AM
Nick, depression is such an awful thing. I love your expression of attacking it viciously. My nephew suffers, has been in and out of facilities with various problems and medicines. After suffering for several years, he has found an outlet and with the hope of the Lord tackles each day. He has become very physical. Congrats! Hope you find catharsis in your writing! xx
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April 12, 2022 at 5:20 PM
Thanks Kim I hope your nephew is doing well, it can be a bit of a roller coaster it’s difficult to image life without it, as unfortunate as it seems, never give up never give in, it wasn’t always this way and I believe it won’t always be. Thanks again :)
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July 7, 2018 at 7:28 AM
Hi Nick.. Good morning. I'm in the mountains with my dog (Bo) this morning. Sipping on your wonderful write and a hot cup of Joe. Nature is waking up and you're bringing a delight to my senses!
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July 10, 2018 at 3:25 PM
you sound like you're living a wonderful life, i'ma tad jealous
Michael Avatar
July 6, 2018 at 5:07 PM
Helplessness without hope... It is your best defense... All the best nick
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July 6, 2018 at 8:38 PM
Thank you Arturo
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