Hidden Pain

I fight hate with every breath concealed in self-control Beneath the surface evil haunts the peace within my soul These tortured thoughts which fill my head are tearing me apart From deep within I feel the pain of questions in my heart My peace of mind is faltering but how long shall it last Before I relive all the pains within my tortured past The battle rages inwardly to mask constant deceit Transformations of the soul are all but incomplete I'm stuck between the man I am and who I use to be My attempts at peace are useless since I'm bound by misery All the terrors and the pain have finally taken hold As I fight hate with every breath concealed in self-control