Heart If Darkness

for her i carry a torch not a flame but a flashlight so that i every night can find where she lays so that i can lay beside her until one night not realizing i had left my light on all day ritualistically i took up her torch and put my thumb on the on button but it was already on yet no light lit my sight leaving me in unwanted darkness with a beating heart thinking what to do i began an endless journey reading braille walls and all that i felt that came across my path gasping at a finger's find that i never found any batteries