Growth

There are not one but too many opinions and views. Not promoting self-growth, but more what you'll lose. An imagined past of wayward direction. Now understood through intimate reflection. Sought after days of laughter and vitality. Produced by a substance to the pending reality. Waking up resentful, with dignity scorned. Wishing you picked up when your conscience telephoned. Remorse rears its head in numerous ways. Mainly anxiety-driven for hours and days. Self-deprecation then societal acceptance. To atone and excuse our own self-neglectance. Internalising the notion 'it's just what we do'. Realising they know a version, non-existent, of you. They look for that person they created and yearned. But what was constructed and taught can then be unlearned.