Gaslighting Me Part1

rearrange my rep and say I'm acting strangely while I disappear unseen out of range from the scene trying to make sense of the path what drains me and continue to claim my head and actions are strange beyond sane and lost of logic shrugging shoulders at the topic as though mental damage the answer able to explain and let it engrain to whom you entertain maintaining the same message of he's "insane" has a "broke brain" or went "deranged" avoid voicing my avoidance exists from my annoyance at your persistent ignorance, ridicule and evident cold blooded attitude to my existence, saying I went mad in an unexplained instant without warning like I took too many drugs and changed from night to morning, and now you're the selfless friend who's lost a friend who meant much more than can be replaced mourning, gaslighting my name in my absent space you two faced special case embracing the need to disgrace mates to fill and finally feel the first placed podium place while I'm wasting in pain going crazy trying to re-pace what made me this way,