Friendships and Holidays

I texted her Thanksgiving. Asked what she’s doing for a living. I texted her on Christmas Day. If she was doing ok. I sometimes admit. That I almost quit. Trying to reach out to old friends. But the holidays are when hope upends. I texted her New Year’s Eve. It feels like I was just raking the leaves. But the cold has settled. I almost want to backpedal. I text her each holiday. With not much to say. Using exclamation points! Hurts my finger joints. Happy Valentine’s Day! Happy Easter is all I can say! Even the Fourth of July. I want to talk, but simply say “hi.” I texted her Thanksgiving, once more. She sends a smiley face I adore. I sent her a turkey back. Old texts start to stack. I decided to delete them right then. If not now, then when? I texted her Thanksgiving Day. There’s not much more to say.